there are four types of guys.
1. short and skinny
2. short but hulky
3. tall and skinny
4. tall and hulky
why are some guys short? of course genetic is the main factor, but i do believe there's other factors. i think it's because they're under constant stress and doesn't have the time to relax physically n mentally, which is vital for their physical growth.
why are they constantly stress?
a. short guys have less confident since they know they can't attract the girls as easily as those who are tall.
b.they work harder and ponder more than the taller guys and therefore, we can usually observe that MOST bosses are the short ones while the tall ones only follow behind him.
let's get into the topic
1. short and skinny
they're short, they felt less confident, but they did not tried hard enough to achieve something extraordinary so that they can compete with the taller ones and stand beside a guy half foot taller than themselves yet feeling confident to be the one chosen by the girls
or probably, they've just gave up and didn't even tried to improve themselves.
ok so why are they skinny then? cause they did not achieve anything impressive as said, and therefore that stresses them out even more and makes them a pessimist. so it's impossible for them to relax, therefore they are smallest in size. as i said, relaxing is essential for growth.
2. short but hulky
short but tried very hard to achieve their targets and to show that they can compete with the tall ones through their accomplishments although they've lost physically. they become hulky because they don't want to look weak since they're already short. of course, looking rigid gives them more confidence. they put more effort in improving their appearance instead of just giving up and say "fuck, i lost, he's so tall" this type of people is also more optimistic n have more positive views of what they face in their lives.
3. tall and skinny
they're tall and have more self-confidence. they usually think they're more admirable than the shorter ones, which is quite a normal phenomena. therefore, they usually face more problems in achieving success because they don't like to ask questions due to their "i'm better than you" attitude. instead they just pretend that they know everything. at last, they can only be the assistant of the short bosses because they won't improve if they don't ask. why are they skinny? coz they are only worker.. so they don't earn much.. no money to buy good food..
4. tall and hulky
they are the most confident and arrogant among the four groups because they've got the perfect figure. therefore, they are less likely to be teased and they feel most superior over the others and tend to command others and want others to obey him. this type of people usually finish off in two ways. either people hate them too much and kill them, or people get scared of them and abide by them. so this group of people are potential bosses too.
in conclusion, guys from group...
(1) are usually the weaker ones in the society and they also die faster due to health problems.
(2) usually achieve their targets in life and are the most successful, but they don't live long as well due to having too much struggles in their early lives to stand out among others. Nevertheless, they enjoy their life more and more as they progress in their lives after achieving their consecutive targets.
(3) usually have more enemies since the short ones envy them for their height and hate them for their arrogance. have less achievements in life and dies of depression or hunger.
(4) live like a king or die like a dog
lame.. but somehow true..
going back to kuching! =))
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
soiness
Attacked by hell of bad moods nowadays.. misfortune BANGS on me!
Don't know if there's somebody who purposely make fun of me.. or trying to play a fool on me by taking away my stuffs to test my patience.
1. lost my phone charger, the phone i just bought for less than 2 months, so bought a new one yesterday, wasted rm38, and not sure if it's original but the shopkeeper ensured me that it is. it has two bling bling nokia stickers on it so i assume it should be ok. nobody said they have seen it. i brought it to the hospital the day my father went into the operation room and it vanished ever since.
2. lost my hair wax, which i only used for less than 5 times. placed it at the table and used it everytime before i went out. i never moved it anywhere. it just suddenly have legs and run away? =.= obviously somebody took it. but nobody confessed, so what to do? needed to buy a new one.. threw rm18 again.
3. people enrolled for uni on 21 january, n i enrolled on 12 feb, so i'll get a penalty of rm200 from the school. i was severely sick during 21 january but that shouldn't be the excuse. the file stating the date of enrolment is right on my desktop since november. i wonder why i did not go and open it as i was in front of my laptop almost everyday. i wonder what was i thinking? i almost shit on my pants knewing that i was late for enrolment. i was so astonished with my carelessness. i told my mum i was truly sorry, feeling reli guilty that time, i offered to not get paid for tutoring my sis this month. all other friends have already gotten their invoices, registration summaries and timetables last week but till now i haven't get mine. sch is starting on next monday and now it's already thursday. i've got nothing still. luckily my friend purposely went to school and asked for me yesterday.. the student admins said they were still working on it and asked me to wait at home. i panicked on the 24th because they said we should contact them immediately if we haven't receive those invoices n stuffs in our email on the 23th. the whole days of 24th and 25th were spent on calling the uni's registration unit. i even called all the officers' extensions. and guess what? not even one phone call was picked up. i think in total i called more than 100 times. if a call costs rm0.20, then i spent rm20 calling nobody, coz it got into the auto answer operator everytime. it's really stupid and it should never happen again.. time n money wasted.. plus worries n stress caused by my own negligence.
I almost lost my temper a few times.. almost turned into a violent beast.. luckily my fury did not offend anyone, only hurt my own body a little bit, coz anger is very bad for our body :(
In total, wasted almost rm300 to buy lessons through series of unfortunate events and that's a lot for me.
1. Do not put things just anywhere and keep your eye on your own belongings.
2. Be cautious of the enrolment date.
Last week, my elder bro came back for dinner and he said i'm like a uncle who just passed away last month due to brain shrinkage. he said i tend to keep all the discomfort and affliction inside n doesn't want to speak them out. it's not like that! i wish i could express what i felt to my mum but i think, to her, that would be complaining and she would sympathize me and maybe give me less works, switching all the chores back to herself again? to me, speaking out is indirectly asking her to give me less works and give herself more, which is unreasonable speaking of being filial. my bro said my attitude may cause me to die like my uncle next time, in a joking tone. But my father was there and he took it so seriously n asked my bro to apologize to me after scolding him. My father said I am mature though cause i know what to say at the right time. I SUFFERED TO CONTROL OK? is it good to control or just let it out? However, I didn't feel offended by what my bro said n I told him what he said is actually in my prediction. LOL.
Actually, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. My bro is the type who expresses his annoyance aggresively and almost instantly when he felt a little pressure on him while i'm completely the other way round coz I tend to breath deep and hold the offensive words down my throat. My bro said he should learn from me but I said NO, it's not good cause it doesn't make me feel happy.
Being too patient causes us to keep all the explosives inside which is bad for health.
Being too assertive causes us to hurt others with the explosives when we spit them out.
Therefore, I think the best is to reach a balanced state between the two extremity and i'm trying to adjust myself towards it.
Don't know if there's somebody who purposely make fun of me.. or trying to play a fool on me by taking away my stuffs to test my patience.
1. lost my phone charger, the phone i just bought for less than 2 months, so bought a new one yesterday, wasted rm38, and not sure if it's original but the shopkeeper ensured me that it is. it has two bling bling nokia stickers on it so i assume it should be ok. nobody said they have seen it. i brought it to the hospital the day my father went into the operation room and it vanished ever since.
2. lost my hair wax, which i only used for less than 5 times. placed it at the table and used it everytime before i went out. i never moved it anywhere. it just suddenly have legs and run away? =.= obviously somebody took it. but nobody confessed, so what to do? needed to buy a new one.. threw rm18 again.
3. people enrolled for uni on 21 january, n i enrolled on 12 feb, so i'll get a penalty of rm200 from the school. i was severely sick during 21 january but that shouldn't be the excuse. the file stating the date of enrolment is right on my desktop since november. i wonder why i did not go and open it as i was in front of my laptop almost everyday. i wonder what was i thinking? i almost shit on my pants knewing that i was late for enrolment. i was so astonished with my carelessness. i told my mum i was truly sorry, feeling reli guilty that time, i offered to not get paid for tutoring my sis this month. all other friends have already gotten their invoices, registration summaries and timetables last week but till now i haven't get mine. sch is starting on next monday and now it's already thursday. i've got nothing still. luckily my friend purposely went to school and asked for me yesterday.. the student admins said they were still working on it and asked me to wait at home. i panicked on the 24th because they said we should contact them immediately if we haven't receive those invoices n stuffs in our email on the 23th. the whole days of 24th and 25th were spent on calling the uni's registration unit. i even called all the officers' extensions. and guess what? not even one phone call was picked up. i think in total i called more than 100 times. if a call costs rm0.20, then i spent rm20 calling nobody, coz it got into the auto answer operator everytime. it's really stupid and it should never happen again.. time n money wasted.. plus worries n stress caused by my own negligence.
I almost lost my temper a few times.. almost turned into a violent beast.. luckily my fury did not offend anyone, only hurt my own body a little bit, coz anger is very bad for our body :(
In total, wasted almost rm300 to buy lessons through series of unfortunate events and that's a lot for me.
1. Do not put things just anywhere and keep your eye on your own belongings.
2. Be cautious of the enrolment date.
Last week, my elder bro came back for dinner and he said i'm like a uncle who just passed away last month due to brain shrinkage. he said i tend to keep all the discomfort and affliction inside n doesn't want to speak them out. it's not like that! i wish i could express what i felt to my mum but i think, to her, that would be complaining and she would sympathize me and maybe give me less works, switching all the chores back to herself again? to me, speaking out is indirectly asking her to give me less works and give herself more, which is unreasonable speaking of being filial. my bro said my attitude may cause me to die like my uncle next time, in a joking tone. But my father was there and he took it so seriously n asked my bro to apologize to me after scolding him. My father said I am mature though cause i know what to say at the right time. I SUFFERED TO CONTROL OK? is it good to control or just let it out? However, I didn't feel offended by what my bro said n I told him what he said is actually in my prediction. LOL.
Actually, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. My bro is the type who expresses his annoyance aggresively and almost instantly when he felt a little pressure on him while i'm completely the other way round coz I tend to breath deep and hold the offensive words down my throat. My bro said he should learn from me but I said NO, it's not good cause it doesn't make me feel happy.
Being too patient causes us to keep all the explosives inside which is bad for health.
Being too assertive causes us to hurt others with the explosives when we spit them out.
Therefore, I think the best is to reach a balanced state between the two extremity and i'm trying to adjust myself towards it.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
some essential reminders..
Patience is our interest earned
Knowledge is our investment
Experience is our premium account
Most destructive habit - WORRY
Greatest joy - GIVING
Greatest loss - LOSS OF SELF-RESPECT
Most satisfying work - HELPING OTHERS
The ugliest personality trait - SELFISHNESS
The greatest shot in the arm - ENCOURAGEMENT
The greatest problem to overcome - FEAR
The most effective sleeping pill - PEACE OF MIND
The most crippling failure disease - EXCUSES
The most powerful force in life - LOVE
The worst thing to be without - HOPE
The deadliest weapon - THE TONGUE
The two most power-filled words - 'I CAN'
The most worthless-emotion - SELF-PITY
The most beautiful attire - SMILE!
The most contagious spirit - ENTHUSIASM
The most powerful channel of communication - PRAYER
The most important thing in life - GOD
Life ends; when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends; when you stop Believing,
Love ends; when you stop Caring,
And Friendship ends; when you stop Sharing...!!!
1.根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？
you don't need to turn back and see who's scolding u, if a crazy dog bit u, would you bend down and bite it too?
2.忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。
envying other ppl brings no advantage to us n will not reduce other ppl's achievements.
3.你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
you are freed from frustration when you put down sth. every types of pains make you maturer.
4.人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。
human suffers because they are after the wrong thing.
5.得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。
we always thought someone is wonderful yet we cannot get him, that's because we don't really understand him and didn't spend enough time with him. one day when you really understands him, he might not be as good as u think.
6.不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。你要感谢告诉你缺点的人 。
don't intentionally go n guess what ppl r thinking because if you don't have d wisdom n experience to make the perfect decision, they usually go wrong. you have to thanks those who told you your weaknesses.
7.不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。
don't quarrel over small incidents n cause yourself to leave your relatives or good friends, don't forget what ppl did for u b4.
8.当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。
if you grab sth and doesn't want to let go, you can only have that particular thing. but if you r wiling to let go, you have the chance to choose others. if ppl r so persistent of what they think, then their level of wisdom will stop improving when it reaches a certain level.
9.你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。
don't always think that u r d most unlucky person, you muz think that you r already better than many ppl.
10.世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。
the world doesn't belong to u therefore you don't have to give up. i use everything in d world but they don't belong to me.
11.学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。
understanding n admiring your partner n not show ur caring arrogantly.
12.成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。
matured ppl doesn't ask abt the past, clever ppl doesn't ask about now, stupid ppl doesn't ask abt future.
13.爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。
love can make someone forget everything, but it can also cause envy which leaves no space for forgiveness.
14.人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。
ppl always treasure what they haven't get but forget what they already have.
15.如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。
if you wish to find a perfect friendship, you may not have any friend forever.
-> exclusively translated for lala
LEARN....... be freed.. and be loved!!!
Knowledge is our investment
Experience is our premium account
Most destructive habit - WORRY
Greatest joy - GIVING
Greatest loss - LOSS OF SELF-RESPECT
Most satisfying work - HELPING OTHERS
The ugliest personality trait - SELFISHNESS
The greatest shot in the arm - ENCOURAGEMENT
The greatest problem to overcome - FEAR
The most effective sleeping pill - PEACE OF MIND
The most crippling failure disease - EXCUSES
The most powerful force in life - LOVE
The worst thing to be without - HOPE
The deadliest weapon - THE TONGUE
The two most power-filled words - 'I CAN'
The most worthless-emotion - SELF-PITY
The most beautiful attire - SMILE!
The most contagious spirit - ENTHUSIASM
The most powerful channel of communication - PRAYER
The most important thing in life - GOD
Life ends; when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends; when you stop Believing,
Love ends; when you stop Caring,
And Friendship ends; when you stop Sharing...!!!
1.根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？
you don't need to turn back and see who's scolding u, if a crazy dog bit u, would you bend down and bite it too?
2.忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。
envying other ppl brings no advantage to us n will not reduce other ppl's achievements.
3.你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。
you are freed from frustration when you put down sth. every types of pains make you maturer.
4.人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。
human suffers because they are after the wrong thing.
5.得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。
we always thought someone is wonderful yet we cannot get him, that's because we don't really understand him and didn't spend enough time with him. one day when you really understands him, he might not be as good as u think.
6.不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。你要感谢告诉你缺点的人 。
don't intentionally go n guess what ppl r thinking because if you don't have d wisdom n experience to make the perfect decision, they usually go wrong. you have to thanks those who told you your weaknesses.
7.不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。
don't quarrel over small incidents n cause yourself to leave your relatives or good friends, don't forget what ppl did for u b4.
8.当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。
if you grab sth and doesn't want to let go, you can only have that particular thing. but if you r wiling to let go, you have the chance to choose others. if ppl r so persistent of what they think, then their level of wisdom will stop improving when it reaches a certain level.
9.你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。
don't always think that u r d most unlucky person, you muz think that you r already better than many ppl.
10.世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。
the world doesn't belong to u therefore you don't have to give up. i use everything in d world but they don't belong to me.
11.学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。
understanding n admiring your partner n not show ur caring arrogantly.
12.成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。
matured ppl doesn't ask abt the past, clever ppl doesn't ask about now, stupid ppl doesn't ask abt future.
13.爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。
love can make someone forget everything, but it can also cause envy which leaves no space for forgiveness.
14.人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。
ppl always treasure what they haven't get but forget what they already have.
15.如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。
if you wish to find a perfect friendship, you may not have any friend forever.
-> exclusively translated for lala
LEARN....... be freed.. and be loved!!!
my future??
Went to c the umbi rantai famous apek today...opposite his house got a coconut tree.. i wonder what that means in feng shui.. heard than more than half of sibu ppl went to c him b4.. what he predict on few of my friends already came to reality.. 1 fren tat apek say can't study oledi.. after few months tat fren really stop studying.. 1 fren tat apek say can't be pei yan if not will forever be people kakia.. tat guy really owes macam people dog... go around everywhere hu people lampa.. APEK has no hint at all but he just can say the right thing... amazing? anyway.. just gave it a shot.. gave him rm5 angpao.. no harm anyway.. my friend said his dead wife told him about us... n he's been doing this for many many years.. if all he knows is bullshitting i dun think he can survive so long... when i reached there with Johnny, saw around 7-8 people inside asking oledi.. all are those mothers n grandmas.. asking bout their son's marriage.. studies bla bla.. and they all listen to the apek so attentively n also seem to believe 100% everything he said... quite amusing.. i asked about my future.. here are briefly what he said about my future.. he said...
1. i'll only start to become tauke at the age of 29
2. i'll have to marry girls born in 1989 n 1991 to strike fortune, ular n kambing, but i will have to get married before the age of 28, otherwise all the girls i meet after my age of 28 will leave me 1 by 1..
3. he knows i had a gf i have no idea how, but he said even if i were to continue that relationship it'll eventually end before i reach 28. it's TRUE, i only had a gf!
4. i will not come across any significant disaster.. and i will live until 70+, he said it so confidently.. he also said that he would've told me earlier if i would face "nan" - tragedy before the age of 30.
5. i will not encounter problems with my siblings.. we'll get along peacefully in the future.
6. people always borrow my money n din return me.. but if it was me i will surely pay back.. (THIS IS SO FUCKING TRUE!! few cases oledi..) - i will not borrow money to my friend from now on.. fuck off!!
7. he said im a good people.. i don't hit people (TRUE)
8. my parents love me (TRUE) - how did he know my parents r not dead yet right?
9. he asked me not to listen to my friends.. cannot go out happy happy.. it will destruct me.. ( this i know... too general.. but nonetheless good reminder)
10. to study hard.. if my dad got ability to send me out 2 study i must go.. (i will...)
In conclusion, he repeated "mo ung teh" many times.. believe it or not? i'm not too sure.. but paying 5 bucks for the confidence he gave me is definitely worth it. after all there's nothing bad to believe... at least i don't have to worry much.. at least even if something bad could happen i will not worry so much till it really strikes me.. understand? POSITIVE THINKING! worrying doesn't not help! just do what i should do n everything will be alrite i guess..
however.. i find it abit hard to believe that nothing bad is going to get in my way like he said.. so smooth meh??maybe what he was referring to are the serious ones..
quite true what he said. from the beginning till the end of the session i didn't told him anything about myself and this is the first time i see him. we don't know each other, but he knows my thing!! hmM... bu shi kai wan xiao de o... maybe im too yen tao.. hehe... damn.. forget ask him toto buy wat number..
1. i'll only start to become tauke at the age of 29
2. i'll have to marry girls born in 1989 n 1991 to strike fortune, ular n kambing, but i will have to get married before the age of 28, otherwise all the girls i meet after my age of 28 will leave me 1 by 1..
3. he knows i had a gf i have no idea how, but he said even if i were to continue that relationship it'll eventually end before i reach 28. it's TRUE, i only had a gf!
4. i will not come across any significant disaster.. and i will live until 70+, he said it so confidently.. he also said that he would've told me earlier if i would face "nan" - tragedy before the age of 30.
5. i will not encounter problems with my siblings.. we'll get along peacefully in the future.
6. people always borrow my money n din return me.. but if it was me i will surely pay back.. (THIS IS SO FUCKING TRUE!! few cases oledi..) - i will not borrow money to my friend from now on.. fuck off!!
7. he said im a good people.. i don't hit people (TRUE)
8. my parents love me (TRUE) - how did he know my parents r not dead yet right?
9. he asked me not to listen to my friends.. cannot go out happy happy.. it will destruct me.. ( this i know... too general.. but nonetheless good reminder)
10. to study hard.. if my dad got ability to send me out 2 study i must go.. (i will...)
In conclusion, he repeated "mo ung teh" many times.. believe it or not? i'm not too sure.. but paying 5 bucks for the confidence he gave me is definitely worth it. after all there's nothing bad to believe... at least i don't have to worry much.. at least even if something bad could happen i will not worry so much till it really strikes me.. understand? POSITIVE THINKING! worrying doesn't not help! just do what i should do n everything will be alrite i guess..
however.. i find it abit hard to believe that nothing bad is going to get in my way like he said.. so smooth meh??maybe what he was referring to are the serious ones..
quite true what he said. from the beginning till the end of the session i didn't told him anything about myself and this is the first time i see him. we don't know each other, but he knows my thing!! hmM... bu shi kai wan xiao de o... maybe im too yen tao.. hehe... damn.. forget ask him toto buy wat number..
Monday, February 16, 2009
life is just as simple?
if we met problems, don't run because a bigger one awaits at the other end.
The faster n further you run from the smaller 1, the sooner you'll face the bigger one.
instead, face it, deal with it, and learn from it!
i think this applies to everything in life, doesn't it?
so be brave! be adventurous! i'm telling it to myself =.=
after 10 years, we'll look back and we'll only regret for things that we didn't do.
y? cos if we did something n it was a right decision, then it could've decide what we r in the future!
but what if that something we did was wrong? remember every mistakes are opportunities to improve ourselves! therefore, take the chance n give it a try! don't look back! BE afraid but don't just refuse! just do it.. don't restrict yourself!!
The faster n further you run from the smaller 1, the sooner you'll face the bigger one.
instead, face it, deal with it, and learn from it!
i think this applies to everything in life, doesn't it?
so be brave! be adventurous! i'm telling it to myself =.=
after 10 years, we'll look back and we'll only regret for things that we didn't do.
y? cos if we did something n it was a right decision, then it could've decide what we r in the future!
but what if that something we did was wrong? remember every mistakes are opportunities to improve ourselves! therefore, take the chance n give it a try! don't look back! BE afraid but don't just refuse! just do it.. don't restrict yourself!!
struggle
once again.. i'm feeling it again..... can't stop thinking... zune hsien leaving for melbourne today.. 2 more years he's a master of architecture oledi.. after 2 more years.. i'm only in my third year... sigh..somehow.. i think i chose the wrong route in my life.. getting master of engineering in UK syllabus only takes 4 years including the bachelor while the australian 1 needs freaking 6 years!! 2 years is alot!! i can earn alot in the 2 years! let's say i earn rm5000 a month, 5000 x 12 x 2 = 120000 ok!! considering the cost.. pounds oledi decrease to 5 lidat.. australian dollar only decrease abit.. but 1 year in UK n 2 years in australia.. the cost almost the same la.. how about the time ?? how 2 buy time? save more time come out work earlier earn back better rite? sigh.. why i didn't thought of all these earlier.. why i didn't go for UK syllabus foundation straight after form 5... or else now only need one more year to get my MASTER! y dat time so stupid go n choose STPM just because i didn't know what to choose? BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO CHOOSE MA!!!! zzzzzzzz..... thought get good result in form 5 then so smart edi form 6 sure no problem... WAT THE HECK...FAIL LO.... so dramatic?lol.. fucking stupidd!!!!!! so angry... but what to do.. now already stuck on the Australian side.. must live at uncle's house to save cost.. go Australia study master still need to live at his place.. sigh.. is this good or bad? God did u plan all these for me? if you did.. i'm sure you have better plans behind all these which i haven't realize... please make me realize... i'll do whatever now.... whatever... which benefits me the most...JIA YOU.. school starting soon! 16 more days... HERE I COME AGAIN SCHOLARSHIP!!!
should i continue to bet on TOTO? :x
should i continue to bet on TOTO? :x
Sunday, February 15, 2009
TOTO
OMG.
I'M ADDICTED TO TOTO?
YESTERDAY (VALENTINE DAY) WAS THE FIRST TIME EVER I BOUGHT TOTO IN MY LIFE
I BOUGHT 3316... BUT RM1.1 ONLY LAR...
BUT THE FIRST PRIZE CAME OUT TO BE 3378!!!!
33??? WHAT A COINCIDENCE!!!!
ANYWAY STILL NOT KENA LAR...
Y I DIDN'T THOUGHT OF 3378!!!!!!
378 MA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! VALENTINE MUST 378 MA!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M ADDICTED TO TOTO?
YESTERDAY (VALENTINE DAY) WAS THE FIRST TIME EVER I BOUGHT TOTO IN MY LIFE
I BOUGHT 3316... BUT RM1.1 ONLY LAR...
BUT THE FIRST PRIZE CAME OUT TO BE 3378!!!!
33??? WHAT A COINCIDENCE!!!!
ANYWAY STILL NOT KENA LAR...
Y I DIDN'T THOUGHT OF 3378!!!!!!
378 MA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! VALENTINE MUST 378 MA!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, February 13, 2009
MEEEEEEEEEEEEE
You Scored as Mathematics/Statistics. You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Mathematics, Statistics, or related majors (e.g., Accounting, Actuarial Science, Astronomy, Computer Engineering, Computer Information Systems (CIS), Computer Science, Economics, Engineering, Finance, Management Information Systems (MIS), Operations Management, Physics, Risk Management). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests.
| Mathematics/Statistics | | 94% |
| French/Spanish/OtherLanguage | | 88% |
| Education/Counseling | | 81% |
| English/Journalism/Comm | | 81% |
| Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health | | 75% |
| Physics/Engineering/Computer | | 75% |
| Biology/Chemistry/Geology | | 69% |
| Psychology/Sociology | | 63% |
| Religion/Theology | | 63% |
| PoliticalScience/Philosophy | | 56% |
| Visual&PerformingArts | | 56% |
| Accounting/Finance/Marketing | | 44% |
| HR/BusinessManagement | | 44% |
| History/Anthropology/LiberalArts | | 31% |
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Turning Point?
I realize recently, I seldom voice out my opinion and hardly express what I'm really feeling. What happened to me?
I realize it's hard to accept the fact that I still need another 3 years and half to complete my degree course while many have already graduated.
I realize it's hard to get back to secondary school friends due to pride, due to the failure in STPM and foundation which caused the severe delay in my study life.
Damnit, I got 7A's in PMR and 8A's in SPM.. and STPM? C+ C- D F.. LOL... What did devil do to me? What was I thinking? Some horse shit blocked my brain??
I didn't thought of my future during form 6 and when I look back now I only see a fuckingg idiot screaming happily in the cc everyday... Being in the legendary HoV DotA clan representing v6 challenging pros everywhere.. we were definitely 1 of the top team in sibu that time... o2jam play until level 66!!!
WHAT FOR?? All the achievements barely has anything to do with me now.. I can only see the bad effects now.. well it was fun.. but imagine all the time and money wasted...It was the WORST thing that ever happened to me in my life so far.. a very very fucking black DOT in my history.. it's almost a SPLASH..
WHY COULDN'T I LOOK 2 YEARS FORWARD INTO THE FUTURE? DIDN'T I REALIZE THAT I COULDN'T ENTER UNI IF I DIDN'T DO WELL AND MY STUDY LIFE WOULD BE SEVERELY DELAYED?? OBVIOUSLY THE FAILURE WAS IN MY PREDICTION... BUT I DID NOTHING TO CHANGE MY DESTINY.. LOL... WHOAAA HAHAHAHAHAH because I was too damn obsessed.. many fucking times worse than if it's by the real devil.. at least for that case, priests can deal with it.. but... it was a new virus.. very strong and almost invulnerable.. cures were yet to be discovered 3 years ago.. the virus.. so robust and vigorous till it can almost be seen with our eyes!! They call it the God of the Computer Games.. it completely penetrated through my fragile heart and leave addiction in me... Not one day I could survive without gaming for at least few hours continuously..
Till now... many teenagers have not found the cure.. as a matter of fact it's still affecting lots of them nowadays.. you can still find the victims in infinity.. vip.. boyz if u c them there regularly with the fiery eyes n burning spirit to achieve victory in their rivalries..
Back to the story.. Who could've help me out with my addiction? Only God of failure can... expert (ME myself) discovered it later as the only effective anti-virus software and it did help...ALOT... If I had not failed.. I will not study as hard as I do now.. I realize that very little people were doing so terribly like me, therefore I find it quite shameful and I really regret now.. but good that it motivates me to study real hard!!
Undoubtedly, I had to enter foundation since I can't enter degree because of a fucking (-) behind the C while the minimum requirement is 2C's only. THAT WAS LOW!!!! AND I COULDN'T!!!!! GOD WAS PUNISHING ME OF COURSE...TO WAKE ME UP? I CAUSED IT MYSELF.. SO WHO IS IT TO BLAME? ME!!! NOBODY ELSE.. I deserve what I get... I put myself into these conditions.. where I could hardly answer when people ask me why am I still in 1st year? still in foundation? How come so slow?? It shouldn't be..?? OMG... I didn't want to care about what others say about me.. but it's so impossible as people like to compare among their childrens.. even my own parents too...
I never studied during form 6.. It was already a miracle that I almost entered degree... but I can't say failing STPM is a bad thing... Imagine me entering degree at that time... I could've died so terribly in degree.. my cgpa would suck coz I'm sure I would not do well in first year.. coz I was entering degree using perhaps knowledge worse than a SPM student.. I already forgot everything during my exploitation of myself for 2 years... Maybe it was God's will... to delay my studies.. If I didn't experience that failure.. I might not be who I am now.. probably just so-so student..aiming pass n credit only.. distinction only if lucky.. HD? crazy ppl get 1... say I can't de la... study lan ar like tat?hahahaahaha...... ok enough crap..
I've just completed 1st year 1st sem.. At least I'm doing well now... 2D's 2HD's for the 1st sem !!! quite happy!! in fact very! that's the best i could get but if i was lucky i could've get a 4 or 3.92.. anyway i'm quite contented.. i studied so freaking hard for it till pimples pops out like corns on the left side of my forehead!! You must be wondering y one side only?? coz I was using my left brain too much!! IMBALANCE LIFESTYLE!! During the whole semester I only played computer game less than 5 hours in total.. the rest of the time are all spent mainly on studying and other crucial routine.. many people said I m sot n should take it easy n dun b 2 stress.. I was just scared that I fail again.. the phobia is still there.. I was just trying to do my best so as to unleash my full potential n to have no reason to regret for any possibilities that I could've get better than 3.84 other than being stroke by massive luck.. maybe I was too harsh on myself and took it too seriously, but I'm happy enough to see the outcome. It all pays off. The pimples are all gone! but they're coming back pretty soon.... when school starts again..
Anyway.. back to...Form 6?? I think i got around 1.2 for gpa LOL.. I can say that I'm really hardworking now :) I must keep it on!! I must get first class honours...I believe I can if I commit myself to it like there'll be an exam every tomorrow.. I must repay for what I've done.. I must prove to everyone including myself that I can if I want...and if I do my best.. I will succeed in anything.. I'm not a idiot.. In fact.. I have to say I'm pretty smart coz I got the 1st among civil 1st sem students.. hehe :) *no lan si intended* (just consoling myself for the failures I've experienced =.=) That's a strong encouragement for me to keep up my hard work... Actually there's no idiot, only lazy people.. I've changed.. although not completely.. or else I would've been perfect now.. but nobody can be perfect.. (talk rubbish)
So.... anyway.. I believe.. I will be successful... and I WILL TRY MY BEST TO ACHIEVE MY DREAM (Construction manager n director, contractor or project manager) no matter what it takes...be diligent Calvin! Also I'll be filial to my parents and whoever that has contributed to my life... whoever that has made me smile and be true to me... But.. I will not announce all these changes of mine... Let your eyes witness it.. Let my results explain everything.. When my efforts pay off, I believe something really good awaits me...
Well.. looking back... foundation took me another 1.5 years.. extra half years.. coz I failed Physics during the 1st sem.. So .. I took 3 years n half to complete my pre-U while those going for foundation only spent 1 year!! 3.5 - 1 = 2.5... OMG I'M LATE BY 2 YEARS N HALF!!! If i had passed STPM and entered degree successfully, I would be going into 3rd year in 2009... but now I'm only entering 1st year 2nd sem.. sigh...How precious is time for me to waste like I have more than others??
I only start to realize recently how important is time.. but sigh.. time goes on and never will it stop for me.. even if it stops.. it stops for everyone.. when it starts running again, i'm still behind.. Sometimes, I think I should just look forward and forget the past, but I can't deny that my past is affecting my current life so significantly. I speak less. I play less. I feel less confident. I struggle much in my social life. I feel difficult to make new friends. I feel reluctant to meet new people. I admit that my social circle is depriving, so is my social skills. Sometimes I even feel hard to retain the friendship bond with my current friends.
Why? What happened to me? I realize I'm changing. To good or to bad? I quit being a crazy and playful person who does n says everything without thinking of the consequences merely for the sake of temporary happiness, which is how I made so many friends last time.. I'm having less fun and passion for wild things due to being always in my sober senses. When doing anything, I think of it's pros and cons so much that when I have a decision, someone has already done it before me. I hesitate too much and I hate it. I become more careful and I'm afraid to take risks. I become very protective of myself to an extent that it is having a reverse impact on me. I feel hard to communicate with girls especially of my age and those who are rich due to lack of confidence. My height issue and my current achievement in study are the main culprits. I hope I can grow abit taller.. wait, there's still hope! I got my secret weapon!! Also.. I'm not rich, which may not be the main concern, but it definitely plays a part. No?
Is this a process of growing up? And I supposed to feel this way? Is this a transition period from adolescent towards becoming an adult? What are my opportunities? How do I approach to it? There are so many things yet to learn. I realize that people have to bend forward to get on a hill while those bending behind and facing upwards are going downhill, meaning that we shouldn't be arrogant. Why am I saying this? I don't know.. I'm out of my mind.. I'm having so much struggles and opinions which I could voice out to no one. Even my best friends could not help me because they're nowhere better than me actually..
Am I an adult already? Hell no. I can't communicate well with people. Why am I having this sort of problem? Am I crazy? Should I consult a psychiatrist? Am I having some sort of mental problem? I feel that my health condition is going down the slope. Thus I'm more aware of taking care of my body. Am I sick? I can't seem to talk like I was in secondary school already. I can't seem to attract people to talk to me. I need friends desperately, but I feel hard to expose myself to them from the inside. Am i so different? Can they accept me? Can we really become friends? I have all sort of considerations. Should I just speak to my shadow?
My mind is entangled. My personality is scattered everywhere. I'm afraid to say the wrong thing, but is it good to be so formal? I suffered so much to have to shut up despite so many things I could have said and make people like me perhaps? Can someone tell me what to do? I can't find myself.. I'm extremely confused.. No exaggeration.. It's exactly what I'm feeling.. I see a stranger in the mirror.. I've lost my smile and genuine laughters. I've lost myself.
Who am I? I want to be myself so as to be loved but I find that so hard. Who can really talk to me? How can I find someone with little gap in between us? What do I need? I don't exactly know. Oh well, I'm not feeling any better. fuck..
Nevertheless, these are my aims for 2009.
1. Make tons of friends and talk more. Do not be lazy!
2. Improve relationship with family
3. Laugh more and have more fun
3. Try to join group activities
4. Be more active in church
5. Quit bad habits
6. Get scholarships
7. Keep up the exercises
8. More enthusiasm for learning new things
9. Continue to resist bad temptations
10. Hang out appropriately
Aims are mainly emphasized on improving social life. GOGOGO! YOU CAN DO IT CALVIN!!!!
I realize it's hard to accept the fact that I still need another 3 years and half to complete my degree course while many have already graduated.
I realize it's hard to get back to secondary school friends due to pride, due to the failure in STPM and foundation which caused the severe delay in my study life.
Damnit, I got 7A's in PMR and 8A's in SPM.. and STPM? C+ C- D F.. LOL... What did devil do to me? What was I thinking? Some horse shit blocked my brain??
I didn't thought of my future during form 6 and when I look back now I only see a fuckingg idiot screaming happily in the cc everyday... Being in the legendary HoV DotA clan representing v6 challenging pros everywhere.. we were definitely 1 of the top team in sibu that time... o2jam play until level 66!!!
WHAT FOR?? All the achievements barely has anything to do with me now.. I can only see the bad effects now.. well it was fun.. but imagine all the time and money wasted...It was the WORST thing that ever happened to me in my life so far.. a very very fucking black DOT in my history.. it's almost a SPLASH..
WHY COULDN'T I LOOK 2 YEARS FORWARD INTO THE FUTURE? DIDN'T I REALIZE THAT I COULDN'T ENTER UNI IF I DIDN'T DO WELL AND MY STUDY LIFE WOULD BE SEVERELY DELAYED?? OBVIOUSLY THE FAILURE WAS IN MY PREDICTION... BUT I DID NOTHING TO CHANGE MY DESTINY.. LOL... WHOAAA HAHAHAHAHAH because I was too damn obsessed.. many fucking times worse than if it's by the real devil.. at least for that case, priests can deal with it.. but... it was a new virus.. very strong and almost invulnerable.. cures were yet to be discovered 3 years ago.. the virus.. so robust and vigorous till it can almost be seen with our eyes!! They call it the God of the Computer Games.. it completely penetrated through my fragile heart and leave addiction in me... Not one day I could survive without gaming for at least few hours continuously..
Till now... many teenagers have not found the cure.. as a matter of fact it's still affecting lots of them nowadays.. you can still find the victims in infinity.. vip.. boyz if u c them there regularly with the fiery eyes n burning spirit to achieve victory in their rivalries..
Back to the story.. Who could've help me out with my addiction? Only God of failure can... expert (ME myself) discovered it later as the only effective anti-virus software and it did help...ALOT... If I had not failed.. I will not study as hard as I do now.. I realize that very little people were doing so terribly like me, therefore I find it quite shameful and I really regret now.. but good that it motivates me to study real hard!!
Undoubtedly, I had to enter foundation since I can't enter degree because of a fucking (-) behind the C while the minimum requirement is 2C's only. THAT WAS LOW!!!! AND I COULDN'T!!!!! GOD WAS PUNISHING ME OF COURSE...TO WAKE ME UP? I CAUSED IT MYSELF.. SO WHO IS IT TO BLAME? ME!!! NOBODY ELSE.. I deserve what I get... I put myself into these conditions.. where I could hardly answer when people ask me why am I still in 1st year? still in foundation? How come so slow?? It shouldn't be..?? OMG... I didn't want to care about what others say about me.. but it's so impossible as people like to compare among their childrens.. even my own parents too...
I never studied during form 6.. It was already a miracle that I almost entered degree... but I can't say failing STPM is a bad thing... Imagine me entering degree at that time... I could've died so terribly in degree.. my cgpa would suck coz I'm sure I would not do well in first year.. coz I was entering degree using perhaps knowledge worse than a SPM student.. I already forgot everything during my exploitation of myself for 2 years... Maybe it was God's will... to delay my studies.. If I didn't experience that failure.. I might not be who I am now.. probably just so-so student..aiming pass n credit only.. distinction only if lucky.. HD? crazy ppl get 1... say I can't de la... study lan ar like tat?hahahaahaha...... ok enough crap..
I've just completed 1st year 1st sem.. At least I'm doing well now... 2D's 2HD's for the 1st sem !!! quite happy!! in fact very! that's the best i could get but if i was lucky i could've get a 4 or 3.92.. anyway i'm quite contented.. i studied so freaking hard for it till pimples pops out like corns on the left side of my forehead!! You must be wondering y one side only?? coz I was using my left brain too much!! IMBALANCE LIFESTYLE!! During the whole semester I only played computer game less than 5 hours in total.. the rest of the time are all spent mainly on studying and other crucial routine.. many people said I m sot n should take it easy n dun b 2 stress.. I was just scared that I fail again.. the phobia is still there.. I was just trying to do my best so as to unleash my full potential n to have no reason to regret for any possibilities that I could've get better than 3.84 other than being stroke by massive luck.. maybe I was too harsh on myself and took it too seriously, but I'm happy enough to see the outcome. It all pays off. The pimples are all gone! but they're coming back pretty soon.... when school starts again..
Anyway.. back to...Form 6?? I think i got around 1.2 for gpa LOL.. I can say that I'm really hardworking now :) I must keep it on!! I must get first class honours...I believe I can if I commit myself to it like there'll be an exam every tomorrow.. I must repay for what I've done.. I must prove to everyone including myself that I can if I want...and if I do my best.. I will succeed in anything.. I'm not a idiot.. In fact.. I have to say I'm pretty smart coz I got the 1st among civil 1st sem students.. hehe :) *no lan si intended* (just consoling myself for the failures I've experienced =.=) That's a strong encouragement for me to keep up my hard work... Actually there's no idiot, only lazy people.. I've changed.. although not completely.. or else I would've been perfect now.. but nobody can be perfect.. (talk rubbish)
So.... anyway.. I believe.. I will be successful... and I WILL TRY MY BEST TO ACHIEVE MY DREAM (Construction manager n director, contractor or project manager) no matter what it takes...be diligent Calvin! Also I'll be filial to my parents and whoever that has contributed to my life... whoever that has made me smile and be true to me... But.. I will not announce all these changes of mine... Let your eyes witness it.. Let my results explain everything.. When my efforts pay off, I believe something really good awaits me...
Well.. looking back... foundation took me another 1.5 years.. extra half years.. coz I failed Physics during the 1st sem.. So .. I took 3 years n half to complete my pre-U while those going for foundation only spent 1 year!! 3.5 - 1 = 2.5... OMG I'M LATE BY 2 YEARS N HALF!!! If i had passed STPM and entered degree successfully, I would be going into 3rd year in 2009... but now I'm only entering 1st year 2nd sem.. sigh...How precious is time for me to waste like I have more than others??
I only start to realize recently how important is time.. but sigh.. time goes on and never will it stop for me.. even if it stops.. it stops for everyone.. when it starts running again, i'm still behind.. Sometimes, I think I should just look forward and forget the past, but I can't deny that my past is affecting my current life so significantly. I speak less. I play less. I feel less confident. I struggle much in my social life. I feel difficult to make new friends. I feel reluctant to meet new people. I admit that my social circle is depriving, so is my social skills. Sometimes I even feel hard to retain the friendship bond with my current friends.
Why? What happened to me? I realize I'm changing. To good or to bad? I quit being a crazy and playful person who does n says everything without thinking of the consequences merely for the sake of temporary happiness, which is how I made so many friends last time.. I'm having less fun and passion for wild things due to being always in my sober senses. When doing anything, I think of it's pros and cons so much that when I have a decision, someone has already done it before me. I hesitate too much and I hate it. I become more careful and I'm afraid to take risks. I become very protective of myself to an extent that it is having a reverse impact on me. I feel hard to communicate with girls especially of my age and those who are rich due to lack of confidence. My height issue and my current achievement in study are the main culprits. I hope I can grow abit taller.. wait, there's still hope! I got my secret weapon!! Also.. I'm not rich, which may not be the main concern, but it definitely plays a part. No?
Is this a process of growing up? And I supposed to feel this way? Is this a transition period from adolescent towards becoming an adult? What are my opportunities? How do I approach to it? There are so many things yet to learn. I realize that people have to bend forward to get on a hill while those bending behind and facing upwards are going downhill, meaning that we shouldn't be arrogant. Why am I saying this? I don't know.. I'm out of my mind.. I'm having so much struggles and opinions which I could voice out to no one. Even my best friends could not help me because they're nowhere better than me actually..
Am I an adult already? Hell no. I can't communicate well with people. Why am I having this sort of problem? Am I crazy? Should I consult a psychiatrist? Am I having some sort of mental problem? I feel that my health condition is going down the slope. Thus I'm more aware of taking care of my body. Am I sick? I can't seem to talk like I was in secondary school already. I can't seem to attract people to talk to me. I need friends desperately, but I feel hard to expose myself to them from the inside. Am i so different? Can they accept me? Can we really become friends? I have all sort of considerations. Should I just speak to my shadow?
My mind is entangled. My personality is scattered everywhere. I'm afraid to say the wrong thing, but is it good to be so formal? I suffered so much to have to shut up despite so many things I could have said and make people like me perhaps? Can someone tell me what to do? I can't find myself.. I'm extremely confused.. No exaggeration.. It's exactly what I'm feeling.. I see a stranger in the mirror.. I've lost my smile and genuine laughters. I've lost myself.
Who am I? I want to be myself so as to be loved but I find that so hard. Who can really talk to me? How can I find someone with little gap in between us? What do I need? I don't exactly know. Oh well, I'm not feeling any better. fuck..
Nevertheless, these are my aims for 2009.
1. Make tons of friends and talk more. Do not be lazy!
2. Improve relationship with family
3. Laugh more and have more fun
3. Try to join group activities
4. Be more active in church
5. Quit bad habits
6. Get scholarships
7. Keep up the exercises
8. More enthusiasm for learning new things
9. Continue to resist bad temptations
10. Hang out appropriately
Aims are mainly emphasized on improving social life. GOGOGO! YOU CAN DO IT CALVIN!!!!
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