recollection

moderate stress is good but over stress can be devastating.

listen to your body else it will fail on you.
determination is a fucked up thing, in other words, it's forcing yourself to go against your heart and body and push yourself over a limit.

they say you never know your limit until you have really tried something freaking hard, but before that, how do you know whether you are able to bear with the limit? when you have reached a self-defined limit;since nobody knows their own limit until they have reached one and felt that what they are experiencing is truly one. so when you get there, how can you be sure that the damaging process towards this breakthrough is recoverable or reversible?

when you refuse to listen to your body to get a rest or relax when u're supposed to, your body eventually fails on you. and you need even more time to relax to compensate for the damage you have done to yourself compared to the time spent focusing on your studies/job/etc in an over-stressed mode, yet in the end you get so little out of it.

they say don't let your heart control you but in fact you should control it. this is a fucked up theory. when you believe you can control your heart, you try to force your body and mind into something more than what you can handle. it is ok in short term, but in long term, you have to bear the impacts it has on you on social, mental, health and every other aspects.

we grow up through different experiences, and it requires time. it can be accelerated, but watch out for the price to pay. throughout all these processes, remember to rest, everybody. keep the stress level moderate, stop whatever it is you're doing before stress builds up and destroys you,then perhaps you could perform even better when you resume it later.

there are more important things in life than what you're currently working on. find out what it is to you, and strive towards it. don't solely focus on your achievement, it drains away other aspects of your life. stop missing out the fun in life. life isn't so bad, it all depends on your priority. so don't live blindly.. but don't push yourself too much though.. enjoy life more.. cut some slack. don't be foolish.start listening to your heart.. then you will unleash what is most fulfilling to you within yourself.

2010 resolutions

Here are my 2010 resolutions..
1.Learn and memorize all necessary guitar chords (hopefully will be able to play in church during singspiration next year). But first of all I should get a guitar ;p Guitar is much practical compared to violin. How often can I play violin?! and imagine myself strumming it while singing my fav songs.. hmm

2.Continue to practice violin and join SONS (State Symphony Orchestra of Sarawak)

3.Have faith and continue to strive in distance relationship.

4.Strive in studies

5.Make full use of my time but nevertheless don't stress myself out into an emo ass cuz that's just not gonna help.

6.Find more time to relax and spend more time for people and not object.

7.Brushing up social skills with all sorts of people by involving myself in as many activities as I could. Make myself more approachable & learn to speak out wisely.

8.Don't say 'No' easily especially when given a whole new task.Don't say 'I don't know how' because nobody knows how until they are keen to learn. Close your eyes and run into it, then see what you can learn from there. Believe me, you won't regret.

9.Spend money appropriately.

10.Make sure I achieve all of above.

What's yours..?

little update

hello peeps im back!
just got back from sibu after 2 weeks holiday break..
what did i do during the holiday break??
hmm... watch movies.. fishing..badminton.. hang out in cc.. lim teh.. wow so colourful RIGHT!@? what else can possibly be done?

let me summarize SIBU as follows..
Siak ta
I don't know what to do
Badminton
U are bored too i know

i'm taking maths 3c now and the final exam is in 6 weeks time. it's quite a tough subject so i hope i will put through then..
watched ninja assassin.. its not really bad i think although mr.hahn say its a great dissapointment to him. i think he just try to act his taste very high. he even say 2012 is suck. muhfuk!
watched feng yun 2.. too graphical.. but nevertheless acceptable.. 7/10
watched avatar.. 9/10 i will give it.. deduct 1 mark cox the avatar too ugly

that's all for now, bye!
anyway, i'm no longer single ;p

wohooo

exam finally finish woohoo~~ screw up one subject woohoo~~~ 2 weeks b4 sch starts.. TIME TO ROCK!!!!!

confusion

i love you as a girl;
i don't tell you my problems
i only care about your problems
you may want to confess, but under any circumstances i must listen
i'm not supposed to let u worry about my problems so i will just find a friend to dump them on
you may feel comfortable with me but i may not feel the same.
but still, i want you.

i love you as a friend;
i tell you all my problems
and you do the same
we take turns to confess
neither of us bother to worry about our problems
we want nothing from each other, but it feels good to be together

in conclusion,
if you want a friend, just confess like you've got nothing to lose.
if you want a girl, you can't treat her like a friend, unless she's the one in love with you.
otherwise, your may need an aegis for your fragile soul.
if you are able stand the test of time and patience, then you might get lucky someday.
if not, get ready for sorrow and depression.

Nokia software updater

Just a reminder..
if you're using nokia N series, you will have a nokia software updater installed from the cd package which comes with your purchase.
please do not use the nokia software updater even though i know it's fascinating to see what kind of software r they providing to us genuine nokia users.
me being one of the curious cat used the nokia software updater yesterday, it downloaded some 100mb+ file and started to update my phone~! yeah~! so excited! =.=
after the update, the chinese in my phone was gone. all chinese characters became boxes.. and the phone's main language became portugese.. i took some time to change it back into english.
also all my phone contacts got deleted lucky i had them saved in my sim card.
i checked and knew that my phone is from a foreign country. that's why, when we run the nokia software updater, it resets everything to its original setting, depending on which country it's from. it also erases everything in your phone memory including your text messages.
so if the phone is made in china, it will have chinese, but maybe not malay; if it's from france, then it's entirely in french.

i had to go to shop and ask them to reinstall the language pack for me, which costed me rm30.
and i had to recopy my contacts from the sim. and i think most of you have encountered the same problem. when you copy the contacts from the sim card, for example what you saved were michelle, after you copied them out to your phone contacts, they become michelle/1 or if it was wai lam, it will become lam;wai/1, so...... you had to delete those /1 /2 /3 one by one, and reverse those names, which i've spent quite some time doing it and it was really annoying!
one of my friend had also did the same thing.
So please don't repeat our mistakes.
DELETE THE NOKIA SOFTWARE UPDATER NOW
AND YOU'VE JUST EARNED YOURSELF RM30

四种人

这个世界上有四种人，

第一种人，没有立场，不讲道理，态度也不好。

第二种人，没有立场，不讲道理，态度却很好。

第三种人，有自己的原则，也很会讲理，但表达方式却很衝。

第四种人，很有立场，很讲道理，沟通方式也很温和。

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第一种人，是彻底的可怜人，因为他一无所有。

第二种人，是滥好人，因为他缺乏立场。

第三种人，是横冲直橦的机器人，因为他虽然逻辑无碍，却不懂与人相处的艺术。

第四种人，是最可爱的人，因为他们就像天使一样。

在这世界上，唯有成为第四种人，你才是个真正的大赢家！

做人不讲道理，是一种缺点；做人硬讲道理，是一个盲点。

just got my result yesterday. didn't reach my target but at least i still managed to get scholarship. thank you lord for the blessings!