jz came to kuching from sibu today.
came to attend cousin's wedding in 2 days.
needa play violin during his wedding so not feeling really relaxed now.
exam has passed a week ago. yet i don't think the stress has entirely vanished.. i had terrible dreams 2 days in a row before coming. in those dreams, i haven't finished my exam and am still working on assignments!! HOLY SHIT!!
lately, there are some issues bothering me.
one obvious, is my relationship. and by that i mean finding the another girl whom i'm gonna spend the rest of my life with.
someone experienced told me that i do not need to look for one. he said god will prepare one for me and she'll appear beside me at the right time. and i believed him.
there's one girl i'm kinda interested in, but after hearing to the advises, i can't be bothered to think that.. what's the point of having such relationship now? what assets do i have, what can i commit, and is it the right time to do so?
what's the priority in my life now? i think i should just put my best effort into my studies and let god decide the rest, however will not refuse what's obviously god's will.
feeling down tonight..
really wanted to go movies with friend but couldn't go although i should be enjoying my holiday now coz the movie is at midnite. in kch, need to go back by 10, eventhough that rule not so strict now, eventhough i can just break that rule and say who gives a fuk? don't control me! it's my holiday man! see.. i'm using fuk instead of fuck. i'm even controlling myself there i don't know why. back to the point, eventually aunty will get worried and would not sleep well until i get back. that happened quite often last time, and i feel bad about that. so in the end i could only sit here..
maybe i shouldn't b so strict to myself.. would that make me happier? yes for now.. but future?
read from somewhere.. a perfectionist has very high expectation on himself and ppls around him.. this type of ppl.. can hardly mix well with ppls around him.. and will lack confidence in himself.. i admit dat i'm a perfectionist.. some parts r quite true bout me.. though not all of them.. sometimes i hate myself for that, cause it makes me get stressed easily and get frustrated with very small problems.. it makes me think and worry a lot more than i need to.. but the good part is that i complete things more neatly and with less regrets since i've already done my best..
everyone thinks i've already changed into a brand new person. do you reli think it's that easy? sometimes i could not figure out how and what i really am, countless personality conflicts within myself in different time at different places when meeting different ppls..yet nobody realizes.. have mercy..god.. feels so.. cramped.. emotionally.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
finally
god..finally.. semester ends.. didn't perform very well in exam this time.. for one particular subject.. EM2.. haiz.. think can't get d for the subject..should've told myself to calm down before the exam starts.. it was the first subject tested on the first day.. guess i wasn't emotionally prepared.. if i really did the questions carefully and thoughtfully i'm sure i would be able to get at least a d. i made a hell lots of careless mistakes i think and didn't even double check my answers.. i think i shivered and my toe tips were cold as ice during the exam.. WHY so nervous?? =.= In conclusion, I SCREWED UP THAT SUBJECT...! but dun wanna think or worry bout the result for nw cz i can do nothing bout it.. so... think KK!!!!!!!!!!!! HHEHEHHEEHE =) and oh, i've finished my 1st year !! xD going back sibu today.. excited and at the same time feeling quite weird coz suddenly zero stress... better treasure this feeling... it's gonna haunt me back real soon..
Quote from Ricky,
Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.
Quote from Ricky,
Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
新昆蟲占卜法~
I think this is pretty accurate.. Try it!
1. add your birthday date..
example : 1987 + 11 + 26 = 2024
2. add the result separately
example : 2 + 0 + 2 + 4 = 8
3. if you get one digit result, then treat that as your answer.
if you get two digits result , then add the result separately
example : 1 + 0 = 1, this is your answer.
4. if you get result as 11 or 22 from step 2, then that's your answer.
Answers:
數字「1」代表：蝸牛人
數字「7」代表： 螳螂人
數字「2」代表：蟋蟀人
數字「8」代表： 金龜子人
數字「3」代表：蝴蝶人
數字「9」代表： 蜜蜂人
數字「4」代表：螞蟻人
數字「11」代表：甲蟲人
數字「5」代表：蝗蟲人
數字「22」代表：蜻蜓人
數字「6」代表：天牛人
which one are you??
解析：
★「蝸牛人」：缺乏自信
你是一個自視頗高的人，雖然還不到跋扈的恐怖程度，
但是卻無法忍受別人對你的一點點不尊重。
其實你的個性是屬於外剛內柔的類型，不會輕易對別人訴苦，
無論喜怒哀樂，都習慣獨自一個人承受。也因為這種外表驕傲，
其實內心缺乏自信的性格，有時候會感受比一般人還要大的壓力。
★「蟋蟀人」：有親和力
你很善良，樂於幫助別人，有一顆溫柔的心。你並不會特別喜歡社交活動，
有時候甚至樂於沈浸在一個人的世界裡，做 自己有興趣的事，
享受自得其樂的感覺。但是，你有一種親和的吸引力，
你不去找別人，別人卻會自動來找你玩樂或幫忙，
所以你的人際關係不錯，可以是一個很好的朋友。
★「蝴蝶人」：熱愛自由
你喜歡一個有百分百自由的空間，太依賴你或是老愛纏著你的人，
一定會被你當做拒絕往來戶。對於他們，你會擺一副敬而遠之的態度，
讓他們自動打退堂鼓。因為你夠聰明，
輕而易舉就能想出一些好玩的新鮮事來試驗，
所以生活過得並不無聊，也因此你更覺得一個人的生活很不錯。
★「螞蟻人」：安靜真心
你很容易被忽略，別人總覺得你是一個習慣低著頭過自己生活的人，
其實如果夠瞭解你的人，會發現你的內心是滿熱情的，
不過一定是要和你對味，而且你夠信賴的人，
你才 會表現出真實的自己。你會對真心相對的好朋友完全付出，
赴湯蹈火在所不辭，不過，相對的，你也無法忍受背叛。
★「蝗蟲人」：非常好玩
你是一個天生的玩樂家，在你的生命裡，
沒有什麼比追求有趣的事更重要的了。
雖然不能說你不夠成熟，或是不夠負責任，
但是你常常令身邊的親朋好友擔心，卻是不爭的事實，
他們對於你的好玩成性，感到非常的頭痛。
儘管和你在一起是快樂的，但是長時間的相處，就容易出現問題了。
★「天牛人」：要求完美
你是溫和派的代表，而且以常理來說，你是一個很優秀的人，
譬如說你很守規矩、你有責任感、你樂於幫助別人....，
你甚至會路見不平拔刀相助。不過也因為你有這些優點，
使得和你在一起的朋友，容易覺得壓力很大，
一方 面要接受你的完美要求，一方面又要不斷擔心無法配合你的程度。
★「螳螂人」：享受孤獨
你不喜歡群居的感覺，有快樂時，習慣一個人享受；有痛苦時，
習慣一個人忍受。會有這樣的情形，都是因為你的自尊心很強，
不願意讓別人介入你的生活，你覺得不管發生什麼事，自己都能解決。
其實，如果你能把性格放得柔軟一些，試著接觸別人，
一定會有讓你驚喜的收穫和甜美的感受。
★「金龜子人」：努力認真
你算是一個好動而且努力的人，尤其是遇到你想要做的事，
或是為了達到一個你想了很久的目標，你一定會全力以赴的去完成它，
當然，如果有很大的誘因，更能加速你完成的意願。
認真的人是最美麗、最吸引人的，
你就因為常常在不知不覺中表現出自己努力的模樣，而讓 別人注意到你。
★「蜜蜂人」：性格強烈
你很驕傲，自尊心比誰都強，這是你的特性也是你和別人相處時的障礙，
因為別人很容易對你的第一印象就不很好，
不過還好你是一個資訊感很強的人，別人會想要從你這得到一些情報，
所以，你不妨多利用與別人交換情報時，表現出較隨和的一面。
★「甲蟲人」：衝動坦誠
你很喜歡交朋友，不拘小節，也算是一個直腸子的人。
最討厭別人拐彎抹角的做事態度或說話方式，
那會令你有立刻掉頭就走的衝動，簡單的說，
只要對方夠坦誠，你就什麼都好商量。你雖然不夠細心，
但是如果有人在一旁提醒你一些應該注意的事，
你也會虛心接受，努力的去改善自己的缺點。
★「蜻蜓人」：好學不倦
你的興趣就是常常蒐集多方面的知識 ，蒐集多方的消息。
會有這樣的興趣，主要也是你很喜歡和別人聊天的緣故，
尤其當有人和你聊一些你特別有研究的話題，
你馬上就有眼睛一亮，變得非常有精神，
甚至可能越聊越起勁，而一發不可收拾，
是一個談天的好夥伴，也是一個知性的好朋友。
1. add your birthday date..
example : 1987 + 11 + 26 = 2024
2. add the result separately
example : 2 + 0 + 2 + 4 = 8
3. if you get one digit result, then treat that as your answer.
if you get two digits result , then add the result separately
example : 1 + 0 = 1, this is your answer.
4. if you get result as 11 or 22 from step 2, then that's your answer.
Answers:
數字「1」代表：蝸牛人
數字「7」代表： 螳螂人
數字「2」代表：蟋蟀人
數字「8」代表： 金龜子人
數字「3」代表：蝴蝶人
數字「9」代表： 蜜蜂人
數字「4」代表：螞蟻人
數字「11」代表：甲蟲人
數字「5」代表：蝗蟲人
數字「22」代表：蜻蜓人
數字「6」代表：天牛人
which one are you??
解析：
★「蝸牛人」：缺乏自信
你是一個自視頗高的人，雖然還不到跋扈的恐怖程度，
但是卻無法忍受別人對你的一點點不尊重。
其實你的個性是屬於外剛內柔的類型，不會輕易對別人訴苦，
無論喜怒哀樂，都習慣獨自一個人承受。也因為這種外表驕傲，
其實內心缺乏自信的性格，有時候會感受比一般人還要大的壓力。
★「蟋蟀人」：有親和力
你很善良，樂於幫助別人，有一顆溫柔的心。你並不會特別喜歡社交活動，
有時候甚至樂於沈浸在一個人的世界裡，做 自己有興趣的事，
享受自得其樂的感覺。但是，你有一種親和的吸引力，
你不去找別人，別人卻會自動來找你玩樂或幫忙，
所以你的人際關係不錯，可以是一個很好的朋友。
★「蝴蝶人」：熱愛自由
你喜歡一個有百分百自由的空間，太依賴你或是老愛纏著你的人，
一定會被你當做拒絕往來戶。對於他們，你會擺一副敬而遠之的態度，
讓他們自動打退堂鼓。因為你夠聰明，
輕而易舉就能想出一些好玩的新鮮事來試驗，
所以生活過得並不無聊，也因此你更覺得一個人的生活很不錯。
★「螞蟻人」：安靜真心
你很容易被忽略，別人總覺得你是一個習慣低著頭過自己生活的人，
其實如果夠瞭解你的人，會發現你的內心是滿熱情的，
不過一定是要和你對味，而且你夠信賴的人，
你才 會表現出真實的自己。你會對真心相對的好朋友完全付出，
赴湯蹈火在所不辭，不過，相對的，你也無法忍受背叛。
★「蝗蟲人」：非常好玩
你是一個天生的玩樂家，在你的生命裡，
沒有什麼比追求有趣的事更重要的了。
雖然不能說你不夠成熟，或是不夠負責任，
但是你常常令身邊的親朋好友擔心，卻是不爭的事實，
他們對於你的好玩成性，感到非常的頭痛。
儘管和你在一起是快樂的，但是長時間的相處，就容易出現問題了。
★「天牛人」：要求完美
你是溫和派的代表，而且以常理來說，你是一個很優秀的人，
譬如說你很守規矩、你有責任感、你樂於幫助別人....，
你甚至會路見不平拔刀相助。不過也因為你有這些優點，
使得和你在一起的朋友，容易覺得壓力很大，
一方 面要接受你的完美要求，一方面又要不斷擔心無法配合你的程度。
★「螳螂人」：享受孤獨
你不喜歡群居的感覺，有快樂時，習慣一個人享受；有痛苦時，
習慣一個人忍受。會有這樣的情形，都是因為你的自尊心很強，
不願意讓別人介入你的生活，你覺得不管發生什麼事，自己都能解決。
其實，如果你能把性格放得柔軟一些，試著接觸別人，
一定會有讓你驚喜的收穫和甜美的感受。
★「金龜子人」：努力認真
你算是一個好動而且努力的人，尤其是遇到你想要做的事，
或是為了達到一個你想了很久的目標，你一定會全力以赴的去完成它，
當然，如果有很大的誘因，更能加速你完成的意願。
認真的人是最美麗、最吸引人的，
你就因為常常在不知不覺中表現出自己努力的模樣，而讓 別人注意到你。
★「蜜蜂人」：性格強烈
你很驕傲，自尊心比誰都強，這是你的特性也是你和別人相處時的障礙，
因為別人很容易對你的第一印象就不很好，
不過還好你是一個資訊感很強的人，別人會想要從你這得到一些情報，
所以，你不妨多利用與別人交換情報時，表現出較隨和的一面。
★「甲蟲人」：衝動坦誠
你很喜歡交朋友，不拘小節，也算是一個直腸子的人。
最討厭別人拐彎抹角的做事態度或說話方式，
那會令你有立刻掉頭就走的衝動，簡單的說，
只要對方夠坦誠，你就什麼都好商量。你雖然不夠細心，
但是如果有人在一旁提醒你一些應該注意的事，
你也會虛心接受，努力的去改善自己的缺點。
★「蜻蜓人」：好學不倦
你的興趣就是常常蒐集多方面的知識 ，蒐集多方的消息。
會有這樣的興趣，主要也是你很喜歡和別人聊天的緣故，
尤其當有人和你聊一些你特別有研究的話題，
你馬上就有眼睛一亮，變得非常有精神，
甚至可能越聊越起勁，而一發不可收拾，
是一個談天的好夥伴，也是一個知性的好朋友。
Friday, May 29, 2009
100% accuracy @@
★「金龜子人」：努力認真
你算是一個好動而且努力的人，尤其是遇到你想要做的事，
或是為了達到一個你想了很久的目標，你一定會全力以赴的去完成它，
當然，如果有很大的誘因，更能加速你完成的意願。
認真的人是最美麗、最吸引人的，
你就因為常常在不知不覺中表現出自己努力的模樣，而讓 別人注意到你。
你算是一個好動而且努力的人，尤其是遇到你想要做的事，
或是為了達到一個你想了很久的目標，你一定會全力以赴的去完成它，
當然，如果有很大的誘因，更能加速你完成的意願。
認真的人是最美麗、最吸引人的，
你就因為常常在不知不覺中表現出自己努力的模樣，而讓 別人注意到你。
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
exam coming.. 2 weeks
stress
tired
smile no out
cry no out
dono wanna make wat expression
I need a laugh.. make me laugh please.. me long time no really lol le. just fake laugh many.
haiz
i dun wanna be "cooL" la
i wanna be active de
crazy de
saying im cool is an insult to me t.t
stress
tired
smile no out
cry no out
dono wanna make wat expression
I need a laugh.. make me laugh please.. me long time no really lol le. just fake laugh many.
haiz
i dun wanna be "cooL" la
i wanna be active de
crazy de
saying im cool is an insult to me t.t
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
F U C K
wow..
i'm actually feeling so stressed
for the first time during the semester
of course there were some moments but never was it as fucked up as this one
my day is fucked up by two fucking ladies
one at school one at home
hey.. i'm helpful but that doesn't mean you can take advantage on that ok?
nowadays people rely a lot on me
i fucking spent so much time to do those works and you guys just wanna copy paste and steal ideas from me? What, how and whY (THE FUCK) am I obliged to do all those works for you? please learn to put effort yourself.. don't just sit there and expect someone to spoon feed you later. I'm not born smart.. it's all hard work.. and that's not what you can see. and even if you can see you can't imagine how much thinking i need to do before putting a conclusion to my works... SO... stop taking my works like it's yours.. I've had enough.. ok? PLEASE. at least try before you ask for any further help..
note to the lady, first of all, fuck you. and *SLAP SLAP DOUBLE SLAP SLAPS SKLAP SLAP SLAP* ON YOUR FUCKING FACE. at least virtually cause you girl have that whatever priviledge you call it. it's so WOW that you didn't wanna speak to me and dared to get angry at me cause i didn't wanna let you copy paste my work. I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU :) i'm really so sorry i didn't let you copy paste. thanks for exposing me to this evil world of 不可理喻
and the maid at home, why does she has to force me to eat everytime? said i'd complain that she didn't prepare meal for me.. said i don't nkow how to prepare myself.. hello.. my eating time doesn't necessarily match yours ok? when you feel it's time to eat that doesn't mean i must eat tat time ok?? yeah i do not know how to cook la but at least i know how to not starve myself ok?
anyway wtf is this entry
i'm actually feeling so stressed
for the first time during the semester
of course there were some moments but never was it as fucked up as this one
my day is fucked up by two fucking ladies
one at school one at home
hey.. i'm helpful but that doesn't mean you can take advantage on that ok?
nowadays people rely a lot on me
i fucking spent so much time to do those works and you guys just wanna copy paste and steal ideas from me? What, how and whY (THE FUCK) am I obliged to do all those works for you? please learn to put effort yourself.. don't just sit there and expect someone to spoon feed you later. I'm not born smart.. it's all hard work.. and that's not what you can see. and even if you can see you can't imagine how much thinking i need to do before putting a conclusion to my works... SO... stop taking my works like it's yours.. I've had enough.. ok? PLEASE. at least try before you ask for any further help..
note to the lady, first of all, fuck you. and *SLAP SLAP DOUBLE SLAP SLAPS SKLAP SLAP SLAP* ON YOUR FUCKING FACE. at least virtually cause you girl have that whatever priviledge you call it. it's so WOW that you didn't wanna speak to me and dared to get angry at me cause i didn't wanna let you copy paste my work. I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU :) i'm really so sorry i didn't let you copy paste. thanks for exposing me to this evil world of 不可理喻
and the maid at home, why does she has to force me to eat everytime? said i'd complain that she didn't prepare meal for me.. said i don't nkow how to prepare myself.. hello.. my eating time doesn't necessarily match yours ok? when you feel it's time to eat that doesn't mean i must eat tat time ok?? yeah i do not know how to cook la but at least i know how to not starve myself ok?
anyway wtf is this entry
Sunday, May 17, 2009
ah ah ah ah ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM FACING SERIOUS
personality appearance contradiction
people thinks im fierce, grumpy and unfriendly from my appearance, especially when i don't smile
but i think im damn friendly and cincai ok
my emotion doesn't mean anything, it doesn't mean something is bothering me and i don't have to smile all the time ok? ki siao ar?
i look stress??? i more stress talk to u
HAIhzz
hard to change anything
i dun wan like tis..
it's been awhile
how to deal with this hmmMM.. stress
socially deprived
say what you feel not what you think?
personality appearance contradiction
people thinks im fierce, grumpy and unfriendly from my appearance, especially when i don't smile
but i think im damn friendly and cincai ok
my emotion doesn't mean anything, it doesn't mean something is bothering me and i don't have to smile all the time ok? ki siao ar?
i look stress??? i more stress talk to u
HAIhzz
hard to change anything
i dun wan like tis..
it's been awhile
how to deal with this hmmMM.. stress
socially deprived
say what you feel not what you think?
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